lies – The Silent Abuse

Joy Comes in the Morning

In just two days, my youngest will graduate high school. I don’t know how he went from my baby to a young man so fast. I keep joking that I’m not okay, but it’s true. I am not okay. These past few weeks have been very emotionally draining. There were so many lasts- the lastContinue reading “Joy Comes in the Morning”

Self-Deception

My intuition has always played a huge role in my decision making and my trust in others. After my ex-husband’s affair, I no longer trusted my intuition. I no longer trusted myself. The years of gaslighting and lies he put me through had me confused and no longer trusting what I knew to be truth.Continue reading “Self-Deception”

Ordinary vs Extraordinary

I’ve said on here before that I wasn’t looking for an ordinary life. I didn’t want what everyone else had, I wanted what God desired for me. That extraordinary life that is meant for me, with joy and peace and true love. The life that God desires for us all but can only be foundContinue reading “Ordinary vs Extraordinary”

Reflections

“Time heals all wounds.” That can be true, but it depends on what we do with that time. If we just sit in our hurts, they don’t heal. We have to commit to actions that promote healing. In my case, I needed space to think and work on myself. I needed to see where IContinue reading “Reflections”

Vent

I have been feeling overwhelmed with stress lately. It seems like the very someone who had once promised to take care of me forever is working hard to repeatedly hurt me instead. Then yesterday, I had someone remind me that he is my ex and that alone should bring me less stress! I am lettingContinue reading “Vent”

Free Love for All

I think there’s a misconception about love. I feel that people often think it needs to be earned or won. My ex has told me that he has never felt good enough for me; he has never felt worthy of my love. He has never felt like he had earned it. I think that’s becauseContinue reading “Free Love for All”

Living a Lie

Have you ever been repeatedly asked the same question? You answer it and the person just keeps asking it the next day or the next week? You give the same answer over and over again and they just keep asking. Or maybe you’re the person who keeps asking. Do you ask a question and feelContinue reading “Living a Lie”

A Gift

Sometimes God gives you a blessing. It may hurt at the time, but eventually you can see it as a blessing. I got mine last night. He did something so hurtful, I don’t know how I will get past it. Just when I thought he could do nothing worse, he managed to inflict even moreContinue reading “A Gift”

Is there ever really an end?

I hate the phrase “’It takes two to destroy a marriage.” Sometimes it only takes one! Things at home were better with him gone. There was a definite peace about the house and the boys and I settled into a good routine. He would come home on most weekends and we would all walk onContinue reading “Is there ever really an end?”

So many lies

Infidelity trauma is real. Emotional abuse trauma is real. The insecurity, pain, and anxiety that comes from being manipulated, used, and controlled is real. Being gaslighted makes you think you’re crazy and the constant lies make you second guess everything you know is truth. This is trauma and trauma can cause PTSD. The triggers, nightmares,Continue reading “So many lies”