To Trust or Not?

I’ve made a lot of progress over the past two years. I’ve managed to release a lot of my triggers, regained the self-confidence that was sucked out of me, and learned to set boundaries with my ex and others. I’ve also learned that I don’t care much for superficial, fake friendships. The friends I lost whenContinue reading “To Trust or Not?”

My Plan vs Reality

I’ve been really struggling the past few days. I know I lost a lot with my ex-husband’s affair and our divorce, but I’m usually really good about focusing on the future and the possibilities that lie ahead. I had a reminder this weekend that sometimes our losses are far greater than we initially realize.  SomeContinue reading “My Plan vs Reality”

Letting Go

In just one week, I will have been divorced for a year. It’s been an exceptionally hard year and a really great one. I don’t know how both those statements can be true, but they are.  I’ve had to let go of so much this past year- my desire to keep my family intact, theContinue reading “Letting Go”

Playing it Safe

I have a confession to make. When things got hard in life, I played it safe. I chose the road that looked easy and normal. God, how I hate that word now- normal. Everyone just wants a normal life with a spouse, kids, and a dog. It seems like that life should be so easyContinue reading “Playing it Safe”

The Value of Friendship

I lost friends when my husband had an affair. I lose a few more when I divorced him. The pain of losing people I thought would be my support, hurt nearly as bad as the pain of my husband’s betrayal. I was angry and hurt by them pulling away when I needed them most. IContinue reading “The Value of Friendship”

Love and Respect

I’ve learned a lot this past year- about myself and relationships. I’ve always known that I desired a relationship like my parents had. One of mutual love and respect for themselves and each other. They made choices that were what was best for their marriage and ignored the standards that society set for marriage andContinue reading “Love and Respect”

God’s Timing

We often hear that things happen in God’s time and not ours. I honestly have never fully understood that until recently.  It’s only been within the past three months or so that I have truly been able to walk away from my ex. We have known each other for over twenty-five years and were aContinue reading “God’s Timing”

Being Still

The above verse spoke deeply to me today. The “be still” part really got to me. I can’t remember the last time I was still and just let God handle everything. What does it even mean to be still? In Exodus 14, the Israelites are being chased by the Egyptians to be captured and broughtContinue reading “Being Still”

Cognitive Dissonance

When you live your entire adult life being fed lie after lie after lie, you become numb to it. You learn to just expect it. I realized one day that I no longer believed anything that came out of his mouth. I assumed he never told the truth. If he told me he was goingContinue reading “Cognitive Dissonance”