Thanksgiving

I began my journey of attempting to be more grateful during the middle of my Celebrate Recovery step study about a year ago. Whenever I begin to feel down about what I’ve lost, missed out on, or never had, I just think of my small group leader reminding me to turn to my Gratitude List. Continue reading “Thanksgiving”

Love Your Neighbor

We live in a world where sacrifice is a dirty word, especially if it pertains to self-sacrifice. This modern era focuses on self-love and self-care, but seems to forget that we are also to love and care for others.  If you haven’t been in a place in your life where you could no longer do itContinue reading “Love Your Neighbor”

To Trust or Not?

I’ve made a lot of progress over the past two years. I’ve managed to release a lot of my triggers, regained the self-confidence that was sucked out of me, and learned to set boundaries with my ex and others. I’ve also learned that I don’t care much for superficial, fake friendships. The friends I lost whenContinue reading “To Trust or Not?”

Quick Update

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. In all honesty, things have been really hard and really good. I finished my twelve step study at my church’s Celebrate Recovery program. It took over a year and is probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through, but I learned a lot about myselfContinue reading “Quick Update”

Self-Deception

My intuition has always played a huge role in my decision making and my trust in others. After my ex-husband’s affair, I no longer trusted my intuition. I no longer trusted myself. The years of gaslighting and lies he put me through had me confused and no longer trusting what I knew to be truth.Continue reading “Self-Deception”

Where Do You Belong?

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect” Romans 12:2 NLT I’m in a Celebrate Recovery group at church. I am currentlyContinue reading “Where Do You Belong?”

Not Yet Ready

I don’t know that I’m ready to find what I’m looking for. I know this sounds strange, but I don’t really know how else to put it.  Today my pastor preached on being lukewarm and it’s had me thinking about it all day. I’ve been trying to figure out if I’m living lukewarm. I knowContinue reading “Not Yet Ready”

Letting Go

In just one week, I will have been divorced for a year. It’s been an exceptionally hard year and a really great one. I don’t know how both those statements can be true, but they are.  I’ve had to let go of so much this past year- my desire to keep my family intact, theContinue reading “Letting Go”

Ordinary vs Extraordinary

I’ve said on here before that I wasn’t looking for an ordinary life. I didn’t want what everyone else had, I wanted what God desired for me. That extraordinary life that is meant for me, with joy and peace and true love. The life that God desires for us all but can only be foundContinue reading “Ordinary vs Extraordinary”

The Value of Friendship

I lost friends when my husband had an affair. I lose a few more when I divorced him. The pain of losing people I thought would be my support, hurt nearly as bad as the pain of my husband’s betrayal. I was angry and hurt by them pulling away when I needed them most. IContinue reading “The Value of Friendship”