He is so much fun to be around. He’s funny, engaging, and the life of the party. He’s very touchy when he’s with me, always has a hand on my back, my neck, my leg. He’s sweet and so charming and says all the right things, how beautiful I am, how he loves to touchContinue reading “My Own Lament”
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What Is Love?
After much soul searching this week, I think I’m ready to dig a little deeper. I grew up with a beautiful example of love. My parents shared a 1 Corinthians 13 love. While not perfect, they still taught me to always choose to love with patience and kindness, selflessness and honesty. They taught me thatContinue reading “What Is Love?”
Cognitive Dissonance
When you live your entire adult life being fed lie after lie after lie, you become numb to it. You learn to just expect it. I realized one day that I no longer believed anything that came out of his mouth. I assumed he never told the truth. If he told me he was goingContinue reading “Cognitive Dissonance”
Abuse Amnesia
I keep getting messages that I’m strong and brave. I am neither. Most of the time I feel incredibly weak and scared when discussing this topic. I’m not telling my story so that I can show strength, I’m telling it so other women can feel strong. I want them to get the courage to walkContinue reading “Abuse Amnesia”
Is there ever really an end?
I hate the phrase “’It takes two to destroy a marriage.” Sometimes it only takes one! Things at home were better with him gone. There was a definite peace about the house and the boys and I settled into a good routine. He would come home on most weekends and we would all walk onContinue reading “Is there ever really an end?”
How to Start?
This blog has been five years in the making. It’s taken me that long to to get the courage to share my story. My story begins in 1996. I met and became engaged to a man I thought was kind, generous, and funny. He was my first and only. That meant something to me, butContinue reading “How to Start?”
The Silent Abuse 