In just two days, my youngest will graduate high school. I don’t know how he went from my baby to a young man so fast. I keep joking that I’m not okay, but it’s true. I am not okay. These past few weeks have been very emotionally draining. There were so many lasts- the lastContinue reading “Joy Comes in the Morning”
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2023
Finding joy and peace in my life has thus far been a balancing act of learning about and meeting my needs and still giving to, sharing with, and loving others. It’s been about finding that balance of having boundaries and still remembering that it’s my job as a child of God to show others grace and mercyContinue reading “2023”
Thanksgiving
I began my journey of attempting to be more grateful during the middle of my Celebrate Recovery step study about a year ago. Whenever I begin to feel down about what I’ve lost, missed out on, or never had, I just think of my small group leader reminding me to turn to my Gratitude List. Continue reading “Thanksgiving”
Self-Deception
My intuition has always played a huge role in my decision making and my trust in others. After my ex-husband’s affair, I no longer trusted my intuition. I no longer trusted myself. The years of gaslighting and lies he put me through had me confused and no longer trusting what I knew to be truth.Continue reading “Self-Deception”
Not Yet Ready
I don’t know that I’m ready to find what I’m looking for. I know this sounds strange, but I don’t really know how else to put it. Today my pastor preached on being lukewarm and it’s had me thinking about it all day. I’ve been trying to figure out if I’m living lukewarm. I knowContinue reading “Not Yet Ready”
Letting Go
In just one week, I will have been divorced for a year. It’s been an exceptionally hard year and a really great one. I don’t know how both those statements can be true, but they are. I’ve had to let go of so much this past year- my desire to keep my family intact, theContinue reading “Letting Go”
Ordinary vs Extraordinary
I’ve said on here before that I wasn’t looking for an ordinary life. I didn’t want what everyone else had, I wanted what God desired for me. That extraordinary life that is meant for me, with joy and peace and true love. The life that God desires for us all but can only be foundContinue reading “Ordinary vs Extraordinary”
The Value of Friendship
I lost friends when my husband had an affair. I lose a few more when I divorced him. The pain of losing people I thought would be my support, hurt nearly as bad as the pain of my husband’s betrayal. I was angry and hurt by them pulling away when I needed them most. IContinue reading “The Value of Friendship”
Goodness of God
I sang this song at my mom’s funeral. It took me a while to really understand the words to this song. I know that my mom believed God was good through everything that happened, but I had doubts for a few years. How could any of the things I went through ever be made good?Continue reading “Goodness of God”
Reflections
“Time heals all wounds.” That can be true, but it depends on what we do with that time. If we just sit in our hurts, they don’t heal. We have to commit to actions that promote healing. In my case, I needed space to think and work on myself. I needed to see where IContinue reading “Reflections”
The Silent Abuse 