Sabotaging the Good

In my Celebrate Recovery group, we talked a lot about how working through our issues is like peeling an onion. You peel away one layer and there’s another underneath it to work through. I know that this self-doubt I have that causes my lack of trust is a very big layer for me. I wasn’tContinue reading “Sabotaging the Good”

Too Much or Too Little?

I want to talk about a topic that is often only used to describe the actions of women. I want to discuss withholding, a term used mainly to describe women using sex as manipulation in a relationship. But I want to discuss what I feel is the much bigger issue of withholding. The emotional withholdingContinue reading “Too Much or Too Little?”

To Trust or Not?

I’ve made a lot of progress over the past two years. I’ve managed to release a lot of my triggers, regained the self-confidence that was sucked out of me, and learned to set boundaries with my ex and others. I’ve also learned that I don’t care much for superficial, fake friendships. The friends I lost whenContinue reading “To Trust or Not?”

My Plan vs Reality

I’ve been really struggling the past few days. I know I lost a lot with my ex-husband’s affair and our divorce, but I’m usually really good about focusing on the future and the possibilities that lie ahead. I had a reminder this weekend that sometimes our losses are far greater than we initially realize.  SomeContinue reading “My Plan vs Reality”

Quick Update

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. In all honesty, things have been really hard and really good. I finished my twelve step study at my church’s Celebrate Recovery program. It took over a year and is probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through, but I learned a lot about myselfContinue reading “Quick Update”

Where Do You Belong?

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect” Romans 12:2 NLT I’m in a Celebrate Recovery group at church. I am currentlyContinue reading “Where Do You Belong?”

Not Yet Ready

I don’t know that I’m ready to find what I’m looking for. I know this sounds strange, but I don’t really know how else to put it.  Today my pastor preached on being lukewarm and it’s had me thinking about it all day. I’ve been trying to figure out if I’m living lukewarm. I knowContinue reading “Not Yet Ready”

Letting Go

In just one week, I will have been divorced for a year. It’s been an exceptionally hard year and a really great one. I don’t know how both those statements can be true, but they are.  I’ve had to let go of so much this past year- my desire to keep my family intact, theContinue reading “Letting Go”

Playing it Safe

I have a confession to make. When things got hard in life, I played it safe. I chose the road that looked easy and normal. God, how I hate that word now- normal. Everyone just wants a normal life with a spouse, kids, and a dog. It seems like that life should be so easyContinue reading “Playing it Safe”