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Father’s Day

I didn’t expect today to be so hard. I knew Mother’s Day was going to be rough, and it really, really was, but I wasn’t expecting today to fill me with so many emotions. The loss of my Mom and the end of my marriage have impacted my family in ways I never expected. ThisContinue reading “Father’s Day”

Being Still

The above verse spoke deeply to me today. The “be still” part really got to me. I can’t remember the last time I was still and just let God handle everything. What does it even mean to be still? In Exodus 14, the Israelites are being chased by the Egyptians to be captured and broughtContinue reading “Being Still”

The Escape

This post is a rough one for me; I had to do a lot of personal reflection and reading my journals. It meant remembering a lot of what I went through not only with my ex, but also some of his family. Since I struggle with PTSD due to the abuse and infidelity I experienced,Continue reading “The Escape”

Vent

I have been feeling overwhelmed with stress lately. It seems like the very someone who had once promised to take care of me forever is working hard to repeatedly hurt me instead. Then yesterday, I had someone remind me that he is my ex and that alone should bring me less stress! I am lettingContinue reading “Vent”

Prayer

This post is more a cry for help than anything else. I’m exhausted, worn out, and just plain cannot handle another thing being thrown at me. I feel like I am being attacked on all sides and I just can’t take anymore. I know my fight is not with man, it is Satan attacking meContinue reading “Prayer”

Mama

I really miss my Mama tonight. I haven’t talked much about her on here because it’s honestly too hard. I wish I could talk to her about everything going on. I wish she was here to hold me while I cry and to be angry with me at everything my boys and I have goneContinue reading “Mama”

Living Without Hope

For some, settling for a little of something is better than nothing. But what if that something keeps you from getting everything? What if settling for what you can have right now means you forfeit the beautiful plan God has for you? What if the hope you place in today’s world keeps you from findingContinue reading “Living Without Hope”

Free Love for All

I think there’s a misconception about love. I feel that people often think it needs to be earned or won. My ex has told me that he has never felt good enough for me; he has never felt worthy of my love. He has never felt like he had earned it. I think that’s becauseContinue reading “Free Love for All”

Nice or Kind?

I’ve learned over the past few years that there’s a huge difference between being nice and being kind. Cruel people can have moments of niceness, but kindness is a character trait. Kind people are nice even when they don’t want to be, even when it doesn’t benefit them. Nice people are nice with purpose, theyContinue reading “Nice or Kind?”

Choosing Wrong

I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. Romans 7:19 I have often felt that my abuser doesn’t want to be the way he is. I know the man I married, the one who told me his dreams about who heContinue reading “Choosing Wrong”