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Vent

I have been feeling overwhelmed with stress lately. It seems like the very someone who had once promised to take care of me forever is working hard to repeatedly hurt me instead. Then yesterday, I had someone remind me that he is my ex and that alone should bring me less stress! I am lettingContinue reading “Vent”

Prayer

This post is more a cry for help than anything else. I’m exhausted, worn out, and just plain cannot handle another thing being thrown at me. I feel like I am being attacked on all sides and I just can’t take anymore. I know my fight is not with man, it is Satan attacking meContinue reading “Prayer”

Mama

I really miss my Mama tonight. I haven’t talked much about her on here because it’s honestly too hard. I wish I could talk to her about everything going on. I wish she was here to hold me while I cry and to be angry with me at everything my boys and I have goneContinue reading “Mama”

Living Without Hope

For some, settling for a little of something is better than nothing. But what if that something keeps you from getting everything? What if settling for what you can have right now means you forfeit the beautiful plan God has for you? What if the hope you place in today’s world keeps you from findingContinue reading “Living Without Hope”

Free Love for All

I think there’s a misconception about love. I feel that people often think it needs to be earned or won. My ex has told me that he has never felt good enough for me; he has never felt worthy of my love. He has never felt like he had earned it. I think that’s becauseContinue reading “Free Love for All”

Nice or Kind?

I’ve learned over the past few years that there’s a huge difference between being nice and being kind. Cruel people can have moments of niceness, but kindness is a character trait. Kind people are nice even when they don’t want to be, even when it doesn’t benefit them. Nice people are nice with purpose, theyContinue reading “Nice or Kind?”

Choosing Wrong

I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. Romans 7:19 I have often felt that my abuser doesn’t want to be the way he is. I know the man I married, the one who told me his dreams about who heContinue reading “Choosing Wrong”

No Joy Without Pain

Strangely enough, Grey’s Anatomy spoke some truth to me today. Most of us have heard the saying, “Hurt people hurt people,” but have we ever really delved deep into that statement? What does it really mean and in what ways do we hurt others? “Sometimes traumatized people lie. They lie to you; they lie toContinue reading “No Joy Without Pain”

Living a Lie

Have you ever been repeatedly asked the same question? You answer it and the person just keeps asking it the next day or the next week? You give the same answer over and over again and they just keep asking. Or maybe you’re the person who keeps asking. Do you ask a question and feelContinue reading “Living a Lie”

Desire and the Enemy

I desired desperately to keep my family together. I wanted the fifty-year anniversary, to be the sweet old couple holding hands, to celebrate holidays, graduations, and weddings together, and fill our home with kids, their spouses, and our grandchildren. I wanted us to the be favorite grandparents that the grandchildren always wanted to go see.Continue reading “Desire and the Enemy”