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My Plan vs Reality

I’ve been really struggling the past few days. I know I lost a lot with my ex-husband’s affair and our divorce, but I’m usually really good about focusing on the future and the possibilities that lie ahead. I had a reminder this weekend that sometimes our losses are far greater than we initially realize. SomeContinue reading “My Plan vs Reality”

Quick Update

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. In all honesty, things have been really hard and really good. I finished my twelve step study at my church’s Celebrate Recovery program. It took over a year and is probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through, but I learned a lot about myselfContinue reading “Quick Update”

Self-Deception

My intuition has always played a huge role in my decision making and my trust in others. After my ex-husband’s affair, I no longer trusted my intuition. I no longer trusted myself. The years of gaslighting and lies he put me through had me confused and no longer trusting what I knew to be truth.Continue reading “Self-Deception”

Where Do You Belong?

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect” Romans 12:2 NLT I’m in a Celebrate Recovery group at church. I am currentlyContinue reading “Where Do You Belong?”

Not Yet Ready

I don’t know that I’m ready to find what I’m looking for. I know this sounds strange, but I don’t really know how else to put it. Today my pastor preached on being lukewarm and it’s had me thinking about it all day. I’ve been trying to figure out if I’m living lukewarm. I knowContinue reading “Not Yet Ready”

Letting Go

In just one week, I will have been divorced for a year. It’s been an exceptionally hard year and a really great one. I don’t know how both those statements can be true, but they are. I’ve had to let go of so much this past year- my desire to keep my family intact, theContinue reading “Letting Go”

Playing it Safe

I have a confession to make. When things got hard in life, I played it safe. I chose the road that looked easy and normal. God, how I hate that word now- normal. Everyone just wants a normal life with a spouse, kids, and a dog. It seems like that life should be so easyContinue reading “Playing it Safe”

Ordinary vs Extraordinary

I’ve said on here before that I wasn’t looking for an ordinary life. I didn’t want what everyone else had, I wanted what God desired for me. That extraordinary life that is meant for me, with joy and peace and true love. The life that God desires for us all but can only be foundContinue reading “Ordinary vs Extraordinary”

The Value of Friendship

I lost friends when my husband had an affair. I lose a few more when I divorced him. The pain of losing people I thought would be my support, hurt nearly as bad as the pain of my husband’s betrayal. I was angry and hurt by them pulling away when I needed them most. IContinue reading “The Value of Friendship”

Goodness of God

I sang this song at my mom’s funeral. It took me a while to really understand the words to this song. I know that my mom believed God was good through everything that happened, but I had doubts for a few years. How could any of the things I went through ever be made good?Continue reading “Goodness of God”