May 2021 – The Silent Abuse

Being Still

The above verse spoke deeply to me today. The “be still” part really got to me. I can’t remember the last time I was still and just let God handle everything. What does it even mean to be still? In Exodus 14, the Israelites are being chased by the Egyptians to be captured and broughtContinue reading “Being Still”

The Escape

This post is a rough one for me; I had to do a lot of personal reflection and reading my journals. It meant remembering a lot of what I went through not only with my ex, but also some of his family. Since I struggle with PTSD due to the abuse and infidelity I experienced,Continue reading “The Escape”

Vent

I have been feeling overwhelmed with stress lately. It seems like the very someone who had once promised to take care of me forever is working hard to repeatedly hurt me instead. Then yesterday, I had someone remind me that he is my ex and that alone should bring me less stress! I am lettingContinue reading “Vent”

Prayer

This post is more a cry for help than anything else. I’m exhausted, worn out, and just plain cannot handle another thing being thrown at me. I feel like I am being attacked on all sides and I just can’t take anymore. I know my fight is not with man, it is Satan attacking meContinue reading “Prayer”

Mama

I really miss my Mama tonight. I haven’t talked much about her on here because it’s honestly too hard. I wish I could talk to her about everything going on. I wish she was here to hold me while I cry and to be angry with me at everything my boys and I have goneContinue reading “Mama”