Strangely enough, Grey’s Anatomy spoke some truth to me today. Most of us have heard the saying, “Hurt people hurt people,” but have we ever really delved deep into that statement? What does it really mean and in what ways do we hurt others? “Sometimes traumatized people lie. They lie to you; they lie toContinue reading “No Joy Without Pain”
Monthly Archives: Mar 2021
Living a Lie
Have you ever been repeatedly asked the same question? You answer it and the person just keeps asking it the next day or the next week? You give the same answer over and over again and they just keep asking. Or maybe you’re the person who keeps asking. Do you ask a question and feelContinue reading “Living a Lie”
Desire and the Enemy
I desired desperately to keep my family together. I wanted the fifty-year anniversary, to be the sweet old couple holding hands, to celebrate holidays, graduations, and weddings together, and fill our home with kids, their spouses, and our grandchildren. I wanted us to the be favorite grandparents that the grandchildren always wanted to go see.Continue reading “Desire and the Enemy”
Fear is a Liar
“Faith is a place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of our fear of uncertainty.” -Brene Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection I lived in fear for many years after his affair. I was so scared I was going to lose everything,Continue reading “Fear is a Liar”
My Own Lament
He is so much fun to be around. He’s funny, engaging, and the life of the party. He’s very touchy when he’s with me, always has a hand on my back, my neck, my leg. He’s sweet and so charming and says all the right things, how beautiful I am, how he loves to touchContinue reading “My Own Lament”
More on Lament
People love to give advice, especially to those who are hurting. We’ve all heard it, pull yourself up by your bootstraps and keep going; just start a new chapter in life; keep moving forward; and my favorite, don’t live life with regrets. But is this Biblical? Is just moving on and forgetting what we areContinue reading “More on Lament”
God’s Design
Last night I woke at three thirty in the morning drenched in sweat and sobbing. I had a dream where I was once again reliving the pain of his most recent betrayal from a couple weeks ago. When these dreams occur, I can’t tell if it’s happening again or just a dream, it feels soContinue reading “God’s Design”
Lament
This morning after I dropped off my youngest at school, I had a meltdown. It seems to be happening daily, but today I was determined I would not feel that deep ache in my soul. I was going to pretend it didn’t exist. Then, my garage door wouldn’t close. I messed with the sensors, checkedContinue reading “Lament”
What Is Love?
After much soul searching this week, I think I’m ready to dig a little deeper. I grew up with a beautiful example of love. My parents shared a 1 Corinthians 13 love. While not perfect, they still taught me to always choose to love with patience and kindness, selflessness and honesty. They taught me thatContinue reading “What Is Love?”
Trauma Bonding
I had a dream last night that I was sitting on my front porch reading a book and my ex was making dinner in the kitchen. A man walked up and began attacking me. He was hitting me repeatedly and I was screaming for help. He just looked at me through the window and laughedContinue reading “Trauma Bonding”
The Silent Abuse 